My Dream or a Nightmare

I been having these dreams lately about one of my ex-girlfriends, whom I have broke up with for some time, 4 years to be exact. This is has been on my mind for almost about 3 days from now. And I just can’t seem to figure it out. The dreams started happening the moment I met her the week prior to the dreams. She told me she was getting married in 2 months and she wanted me to go to the wedding. We ended our relationship in a bad way, she had to go away for school in New York, so I took the initiative to end our relationship and go our separate ways.
The Dream…

In my dream I would I see myself walking front of this church over and over for 2 days I would have this dream, small clips of moments I had with my ex-girlfriend. But then 3rd night I dreamt I was walking down the sidewalk of 19th Avenue, where my ex-girlfriend and I would walk together all the time at night just spending time together. But as I was walking I was holding her hand like always, but everything started to change the street next to me on the left would turn into pews of people; friends and family. The ground beneath me started to turn red carpet and I looked forward I saw an altar and stand glass window behind it and a priest standing in front of it. I then realized this was the inside of the church I kept dreaming of for the 2 nights before. I looked to my right at my ex-girlfriend she was draped in a wedding dress. We were no longer walking down 19th Avenue, but down the aisle during a wedding. I thought this was just a dream of me thinking that I was going to get married, because we thought we were going to be together forever and when we were seeing each other we would talk about how our dream wedding would be like. This was very similar to what we talked about; I was holding her and walking with her down the aisle as the pianist played, but I wasn’t wearing a tuxedo, I wasn’t the groom, as we got to the front of the altar there was a man standing before the priest, he turns around and I can’t see his face, its blank. I stop walking, my feet won’t move any further, she continues and stands next to him, I turn away and start running to the door exit of the church, I can’t grab the door handle to get out, but my hands are gone. I turn around, and then I see my hands still holding on to her hand, I turned to the door the door grew up even higher. I turned back toward the altar, all of a sudden I’m right behind them in front of the altar, the stain glass window turns an open door, she’s smiling at me and ask me, “are you happy for me?”, then I walk up.

I feel this is a sign of my hands holding of me not being able to let go of my ex-girlfriend, not being able to give her up. The exit door is like a sign that I should not look to the past, go to the past and as I will always be brought back to the present and I have to face the facts. I have to let my hands go of her and move toward the door behind the altar, which may signify progression, to move forward through my problems. I have to learn to let go of the past and move on, and tell her how I feel and let her be happy, because I know she is.